So.
Yes, I'm lonely.
Really, really bloody lonely.
What do I have to do to get my so called 'friends' to actually, you know, spend time with me? What am I doing wrong? Do I smell? I bet I smell. Am I omitting from my body some offensive sound or sensation which can only be heard or felt by others?
I have been a hermit this weekend. By the look of things it's to become a permanent position in life.
Friday: Felt the urge to go out. Got in touch with friends. Here were their responses.
Friend 1 - Oh but I'm really tiiiiiiiired.
Friend 2 - The machine ate my card and we're not spending your money!
Godammit.
Saturday - Was obliged to stay indoors and 'look after the dog'. This is my life, my parents go out to some party which I could have gone to but was not in fact invited by said parents (very good for the self esteem), and ended up having a hormone induced identity crisis. I felt starved for affection. I wanted a hug, just one hug, off someone who was not a relative (and therefore obliged to give affection) or a friend (ditto). I couldn't get my mind off the fact that I was stuck indoors feeling ugly and unloved on a saturday night. So what did I ed up doing to remedy that?
Played Guitar Hero 3 in my bra and a top hat.
That is my life.
Guitar Hero. Bra. Top hat.
